satyriasis
karlina veras
I can’t stop the urge.
No matter what, I can’t. I’m hooked. I thought I was strong enough, but I’m not. I’m human after all.
It took me a while to realise, that if you can’t beat them, join them. So here I am, trapped by my emotions and physical desires.
For more than I can remember, I’ve been in an eternal search for something more. I didn’t even know what I was looking for. But then I understood that by letting things happen, I’m getting closer; living then now, enjoying the moment. It’s the warmth, the heat, the blending of energies between two beings. Feeling someone else’s heart beat so close to mine that it gets lost in space; two becoming one.
I admit it, I’m clingy, needy and proudly so. I’m still searching. Why am I as I am? Why are we as we are? Could it be fear? Solitude? Maybe.
But as accepting the now, so is accepting reality.
If no one is around, my hands alone will do for now…
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