born in this despair
mattias tello
IV
We were both born in this despair
Thou and I
Besides the cataclysm
And your shape
I saw you last night
I saw a thin red hair
With a thin red eye
Just to discover how lonely
And sad
Could be the world in darkness
All this happen in the same moment when
In my bedroom
Yes, where I keep a spirit of yours
Where your phantom is lock
The hourglass fell down
Dragging your anima
And your book and
A couple of cheap cigarettes
You know what image came across my mind despite all that?
A month
A February
A February near the beach when I didn’t take a swim
A February where I used to belong
Just to learn the independent mindless outsiders we are
For everything
I’m also reminded of the day when I thought about those
Dozen excuses just to walk around your brick wall house
I could never be honest with you
Not anymore
And I had to wear leather
You know, babe
That black leather you use to love so much in those
Stupid walkers
All I have to say
My dear
Furthermore your coal sight
Your fragile tender white almost fake face
Your thousand laughs that used to be mine
My dear
All that kept me here
Every time I took a walk
Every time I ate somewhere else
It’s the fact of not knowing
If you would talk to me when
I got home
V
I wonder now
What are those voices that
I hear every night
What are those voices that come to me in the morning
Just to say
“I am the autumn whisper
The phantom
So hear
Hear
Hear
Hear me”
Because you ain’t going back
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